Short Classy Girl

I am starting fresh I have gained weight, I am now 124lbs and I want to be 100 by the ending of July. They boy I was in love with for a year and half now, turns out never loved me. He just wanted to have fun and also it’s my fault because I was so blind. It hurts. I was day dreaming yesterday,imagining what if he was the type of person I wanted him to be and what if we were together. The reality is that he is immature, a coward and I am just repulsed by him. I am letting him go and if one day he mans up and realizes what he truly feels for me then I will take him back or maybe not. I can do so much better anyways. And I want to lose weight not because I want him to regret because well,looking hot is the best revenge. I am doing this for me. I want to look good and feel good. I want control, and I want to be a perfectionist!

Woke up at 5pm (I know bad)
Had chai and half biscotti (150)
Yogurt (200)
Fried okra with roti and mango pickle (400)

Total: 750 calories

Starting 2468 diet as of today, however I will not consume rice or any sweet treats!

Sw: 120
Cw:120
Gw: 110 
Gw2: 105
Ugw: 95-100

I have decided to go back to my old diet, and I will not check weight till I go back to the doctors on December 26th 2012. I just have to be consistent with my diet and exercise regime. I think my ex and his best pal who used to be my closest friend will visit ny in december and looking hot is the best revenge. I know that I don’t ever wish to speak to them again but I can’t help but miss them. I just have to remind myself that its over and that the best is yet to come!

I love you Sheldon Cooper!!!

Im not dating this guy, im not in love with him, while i like him but the other night we did a role play via text msgs. I am not sure what we are? Wth are we? It doesn’t make sense! Please someone explain to me! We are not that close of friends because he doesn’t know my wounds and scars, and vice versa. So I am not sure what this is…..

Going on a strict diet as of today because last year during this time I started my diet in which I lost a lot of weight, so this year, I have decided to do the same. Had about 500-600 healthy calories today. According to losertown I should be 100 by march! 

My diet today was veggies and some fruits with a small biscotti and tea.

From tomorrow:

I will have green tea, hot water for breakfast.

For lunch: one roti OR a salad (200-300 calories)

For snack: tea (100)

For dinner: salad or just an orange (100-200)

(less carbs, more fruit and veggies)

ana8zero:

I love not eating.

Other phrases bounce around in my head all the time, but they tend to be negative.

Nothing overcomes my cravings better than:

I love not eating.

I started saying it to myself, and the number on the scale started dropping faster.

Then why the hell did you flirt with me? Why??? I wont let you get me down or sad, I didn’t have a condition when we became friends that you had to fall for me. I will still talk to you but if in the future you fall for me, you can never have me. You have no idea who you lost.

“I lost someone who didn’t like me but he lost someone who could’ve loved him immensely”